Live Loved LaShell
Follow Breanna as she runs a nonprofit , figures out life, and just enjoys each moment as it comes her way.
Hey sweet friends!!! Welcome back to the blog. I have been working hard to get back to this, to get back to falling in love with not only writing, but with my life as a whole. As I was reflecting on why this blog was important to me and who I was hoping to reach, I wrote the phrase “she is tired of living her life apologetically.” Wow, talk about a wake up call because I have been living life apologetically. I have limited myself to the expectations of life and forgotten that it is okay to live outside of the box. It is okay to be a little unorthodox, to love yourself, to love life hard in whatever way that makes you happy. Living life in a bubble full of others, wants thoughts and expectations is exhausting. Life is short, take a chance, eat the extra piece of cake, go on the spontaneous road trip, love others HARD! You never know what will happen. Life has no problem with kicking our butts and laughing at us while it happens, it is important to snatch our small moments of joy. Coming from a perpetual people-pleaser this is a hard truth to swallow. It is also not an easy truth to live. So I thought I would share some of the things I am changing (or at least working on changing) to keep from living apologetically.
1.Schedule (at MINIMUM) 2 hours a week to do whatever makes my heart happy: nap read, watch a movie, sit and stare at the wall, whatever I want, without an explanation to anyone. NO guilt, no excuses.
2.Stop overbooking myself. My people pleasing heart hates to tell anyone “no.” This is all fine and dandy… at least until it isn’t and I’m on day 5 of less than 4 hours of sleep, not living my best life, while disappointing everyone I made commitments to in the process. Learning that it is okay to limit the time and energy I give out to others so I can give my best to what I’m working on is a crucial lesson for me.
3.Embracing the imperfections of life. Somehow it still disappoints me that I have an inability to be “perfect” or create “perfect” situations. I completely know and understand that perfection isn’t a possibility yet I still find myself feeling disappointed when I don’t meet my own personal impossible standards. This year I really want to lean into the imperfections, the messiness, the random left turns that throw me for a loop. I am slowly learning that my life is happening in these imperfect moments and instead of enjoying them, I am running from them.
These are my three big growth areas I hope to improve in 2019. Maybe these are your big areas as well, or maybe it is something totally different. Take some time to really do a heart check and decide what is preventing you from living your best beautiful life. Live life unapologetically friends, you deserve it!!